On the Disabled List

I won't be able to work out for a few days at least. I rolled my ankle and I think it is sprained. I can barely put any weight onto it. This is disappointing to me as I really wanted to stay on top of things this weekend. I suppose I can take solace in that I got in my hour and a half for the week. That is what they say is healthy to do. I really wanted to do more though. Maybe I should work with hand weights or something in the meantime.

Personal Progress 07/07/10

I just got done working out. I didn't get a chance to yesterday, but that is just as well since my legs were sore. Like I mentioned before, I don't want to overdo it. I got right back into things today though. I did 30 minutes on the stationary bike. I wanted to do the treadmill again, but someone else was already using it. And all the other equipment in my complex's exercise room is currently broken.(damn kids) So stationary bike it was.

It said I only burned a little over 200 calories at the end of the 30 minutes. That is substantially less than I burned on the treadmill. I, however, felt like I did more. I built up more of a sweat. I ended up going 8 miles. And unlike a real bike, I didn't coast at all. So I'm not sure how much good I actually did compared to the treadmill, but I feel good and it was better than doing nothing.

Personal Progress 07/05/10

Make that two days in a row. Two straight days of working out. I did another 30 minutes on the treadmill. I pushed myself a bit harder today and managed to burn 375 calories. So a bit of an improvement over yesterday.I also went to weigh myself today and my scale is broken. No I did not break it stepping on it. So I have to buy a new scale so I can start keeping record of progress.

It was easier to go work out today than yesterday. Yesterday I really had to muster up the energy to go do it. But today I was still feeling good about doing it yesterday that I got right to it. It was one of the first things I did today even. My legs are sore from doing this the past couple of days, but it will get better. I even picked up a new pair of workout shoes today. So I guess that is a sign of my commitment to this.

Personal Progress 07/04/10

My first personal progress report in 6 months. It was a long time coming. Like I mentioned in my previous post, my weight has been weighing(*chuckle*)on my mind a lot lately. As such, I worked out today. I spent 30 minutes speed walking on the treadmill. Not anything major, but I burned about 325 calories. I have a long ways to go. But a journey starts with a single step. I did feel good after the workout. I'm hoping that I can build up some momentum and keep it up.

I take that back, I don't hope. Let's face it, weight loss isn't built on hope. It is built upon how much effort we are willing to put into it. Whether or not I do this, it is all on me. Wishful thinking and hoping won't get me there. I have to dig deep and find the willpower within myself. It is easier said than done. But at what point does one get sick of looking at their fat body? When people are turned off by your weight, how much more incentive does one need? I get it. It's like a cycle. The more depressed you get about your weight, the more you withdraw into yourself and eat more. There comes a point when the cycle has to be broken.

Amused By the Irony

I noticed that two of the ads on my page were of Papa Johns Pizza. I was greatly amused by the irony of pizza advertising on a weight loss blog. I mentioned them once and I get their ads. They are delicious.

I Have Failed Thus Far

Life catches up with us and we often find ourselves with little time to do the things we want. I haven't given this blog the attention I've wanted to and I have not worked out or paid attention to the things I ate at all. I'm fairly certain that I have gained weight, but I am too afraid to weigh myself to find out. I know I have failed on my goals so far.

One of the biggest things that has been weighing(punny) on my mind is how I look to others. I have been on a couple of dates where I could tell they weren't attracted to me at all. I didn't have this problem before I got this fat. I have no desire to be this way.

I've simply been lazy. And I think I've entered a minor depression with breaking up with my girlfriend a few months ago and with looking for new work. Once you get to this point, it is very easy to just allow yourself to lapse even further. It's a total snowball effect once it gets rolling. I can recognize that this is on my shoulders and that I have fallen short. I have a desire to change this and hope to be making a turn around in the near future. My focus is going to be on working out. I hope that I have the inner strength and conviction to do this for me, and for everyone that comes to read this page seeking inspiration.

I'm not gone....Promise.

I know I disappeared for awhile. I got caught up in the girl I was dating and then we broke up and I haven't felt very motivated to post. I also haven't really been following the diet to closely. But this is always on my mind and wanted to stop in to say that I will be announcing some changes soon and be back to posting on a regular basis.

Personal Progress 01/03/10 & Weigh-In #6

A new year and renewed vigor. I haven't been posting as much because I've started dating someone. And we all know how the beginning of a relationship takes a lot of time and focus. She seems fine with me weight. I, however, want to continue to lose weight for myself.

Speaking of weight, I went up to 262.6lbs this week. That is a .4lbs increase. Which given that it was still the holidays and I was eating out a lot, I don't feel exceptionally bad about. Starting this week I go back to the diet in a more strict fashion. I'm also going to incorporate exercise more into my regiment.

I discovered that it was a good idea switching from the meal shakes to the meal bars. There have not been shakes available for over a month now. Turns out that Slim-Fast did a massive recall of all their shakes. I only drank them for like 2 weeks prior to the recall. Like I said, I didn't feel they were nearly as filling anyway.