Amused By the Irony

I noticed that two of the ads on my page were of Papa Johns Pizza. I was greatly amused by the irony of pizza advertising on a weight loss blog. I mentioned them once and I get their ads. They are delicious.

I Have Failed Thus Far

Life catches up with us and we often find ourselves with little time to do the things we want. I haven't given this blog the attention I've wanted to and I have not worked out or paid attention to the things I ate at all. I'm fairly certain that I have gained weight, but I am too afraid to weigh myself to find out. I know I have failed on my goals so far.

One of the biggest things that has been weighing(punny) on my mind is how I look to others. I have been on a couple of dates where I could tell they weren't attracted to me at all. I didn't have this problem before I got this fat. I have no desire to be this way.

I've simply been lazy. And I think I've entered a minor depression with breaking up with my girlfriend a few months ago and with looking for new work. Once you get to this point, it is very easy to just allow yourself to lapse even further. It's a total snowball effect once it gets rolling. I can recognize that this is on my shoulders and that I have fallen short. I have a desire to change this and hope to be making a turn around in the near future. My focus is going to be on working out. I hope that I have the inner strength and conviction to do this for me, and for everyone that comes to read this page seeking inspiration.

I'm not gone....Promise.

I know I disappeared for awhile. I got caught up in the girl I was dating and then we broke up and I haven't felt very motivated to post. I also haven't really been following the diet to closely. But this is always on my mind and wanted to stop in to say that I will be announcing some changes soon and be back to posting on a regular basis.

Personal Progress 01/03/10 & Weigh-In #6

A new year and renewed vigor. I haven't been posting as much because I've started dating someone. And we all know how the beginning of a relationship takes a lot of time and focus. She seems fine with me weight. I, however, want to continue to lose weight for myself.

Speaking of weight, I went up to 262.6lbs this week. That is a .4lbs increase. Which given that it was still the holidays and I was eating out a lot, I don't feel exceptionally bad about. Starting this week I go back to the diet in a more strict fashion. I'm also going to incorporate exercise more into my regiment.

I discovered that it was a good idea switching from the meal shakes to the meal bars. There have not been shakes available for over a month now. Turns out that Slim-Fast did a massive recall of all their shakes. I only drank them for like 2 weeks prior to the recall. Like I said, I didn't feel they were nearly as filling anyway.

Personal Progress 12/27/09 & Weigh-In #5

This past week was the week of Christmas. It was more hectic, so not as much time to post. Of course there were all the treats that you eat throughout the holidays. Because of this, I truly expected the worst when I weighed in this morning. Color me surprised when I found myself weighing in at 262.2lbs. That was a loss of 3.4lbs. My biggest loss yet. The thing is, I don't feel like I've lost weight like I have in weeks past.

I've decided that come the first of the year, I'm going to really start incorporating exercise into my regiment as well. The diet is going well, but I really need to start developing some muscle and working off more of this fat.

Also I find this blog is harder to maintain when no one is reading it. It's like I'm writing to myself.lol

Personal Progress 12/20/09 & Weigh-In #4

This week I haven't stuck to my diet nearly as closely as in weeks prior and it ended up coming back to get me. My weight this morning was 265.6lbs. So I went up .6lbs. I recognize though that diets are hard to maintain around the holidays. I'm not going to let it discourage me. And I am making smarter eating choices still. For example I went to McDonalds with a friend. And rather than getting a McRib and fries, I got a grilled chicken wrap instead.

My clothes are still fitting better. And I can wear my neckwear again. I had this necklace that had become too tight around my neck and now it isn't anymore. So it is little improvements that I am noticing.

Personal Progress 12/15/09 & Weigh-In #3

I've been meaning to get to this for days and keep forgetting about it. I'm slacking. I'm a bit stressed with work and have the holidays coming up, so my mind is elsewhere. Well I have great news, I lost weight for another week. As of last Sunday, I was down to 265lbs. I have lost 7.6lbs in 3 weeks. I'm proud of it.

The bad thing is I think it is making me a bit complacent. I think because I am losing weight, I am justifying eating off my diet more frequently. I need to buckle down and show more restraint. I also need to get around to exercising. I keep saying that, but overcoming the laziness is tough. If I keep losing weight at this rate, I should be where I wanna be in 6 1/2 months or so. Just in time for summer.